Borderline Personality Disorder

OK, so I quit 3 days, 12 hours, 54 minutes ago.

I was planning this for a LONG time, and I told no one until I did it. I am doing this with the help of Nicorette Inhaler.

Days 0-3 have been tough, yet I am pleasantly surprised at my accomplishing this, with relative ease. I was around 2 smokers at a  New Years eve party, and did just fine, I only use the inhaler after 5 minutes of initial craving, and it works fine, I hope to keep the inhaler as a last resort, as I am taking the minimum dose of Nicotine. (they say the average person takes 6-12 cartridges, I am trying to stay bellow 6 per day)

I am doing lots of reading on withdrawal from Nicotine.

Things I notice most, a lot of anxiety and moodiness for days 0-2, I felt I was in mourning, to the point of crying, and referring to cigs/smoking as a lover lost, I was a smoker more than half my life, this activity has been a constant companion, a true toxic relationship....very interesting indeed. My dreams are vivid and pleasant, I have these short bouts of feeling weak, need to take a few deep breathes, even step outside for some cold air, other times I feel incredible, I am the master of my body. I have urges to smoke, at the computer, while watching TV, driving, taking a walk outside, while reading, in the bath, right before bed, with first coffee, while waiting for first coffee....for now at least 10 times a day I do need a smoke, the next 2 weeks are going to be hardest, this is one nasty habit, and I plan to break it.

Happy 2008!

I am happy that my house will soon no longer smell of smoke, no more ashtrays,

Stephanie

The Basics of Recovery
1. Remaining hopeful and envisioning a future growth and development. 2. Having the right to choose – without it there is no motivation 3. Knowing that you are not a label or a diagnosis. You are a living, changing person, not an object. 4. Speaking for ourselves. When others speak for us we are devalued.	I don’t like negativity. I don’t like seeing myself as a victim. And I don’t believe misery loves company. I’m recovering from my illness because I know I don’t have to be this way. AMI-Québec member
5. Establishing our own homes in the community where we can choose our roommate or live alone. 6. Acknowledging the need for friends, peers and intimate relationships. 7. Realizing that peer support and self-help groups keep us grounded and connected. 8. Protecting and nurturing the spirit within us. 9. Knowing all things are possible and that to be alive is a miracle

Recovery, as we currently understand it, means growing beyond the catastrophe of mental illness and developing new meaning and purpose in one’s life. It means taking charge of one’s life even if one cannot take complete charge of one’s symptoms…. Recovery is a deeply personal, unique process of changing one’s attitude, values, goals and skills and or/roles.

Hi Stephanie,

We also have a great Kick Butt: Quit Smoking Today board you might want to explore:

http://messageboards.ivillage.com/iv-bhkickbutt

Plus, lots of supportive content:

http://yourtotalhealth.ivillage.com/smoking-cessation.html

Good luck!

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Well, still going, today is a STRESSFUL day, but I will keep at it.

Latest symptoms are waking in the middle of the night, lol, sleep disturbances are not good. Still having very vivid, strange  dreams, eating lots, i'm hungry all the time. I'm going to have to make sure I take walks daily, and maybe start exersizing. Today I have two meetings and they are very emotional.

I hope everyone is well.

Stephanie

The Basics of Recovery
1. Remaining hopeful and envisioning a future growth and development. 2. Having the right to choose – without it there is no motivation 3. Knowing that you are not a label or a diagnosis. You are a living, changing person, not an object. 4. Speaking for ourselves. When others speak for us we are devalued.	I don’t like negativity. I don’t like seeing myself as a victim. And I don’t believe misery loves company. I’m recovering from my illness because I know I don’t have to be this way. AMI-Québec member
5. Establishing our own homes in the community where we can choose our roommate or live alone. 6. Acknowledging the need for friends, peers and intimate relationships. 7. Realizing that peer support and self-help groups keep us grounded and connected. 8. Protecting and nurturing the spirit within us. 9. Knowing all things are possible and that to be alive is a miracle

Recovery, as we currently understand it, means growing beyond the catastrophe of mental illness and developing new meaning and purpose in one’s life. It means taking charge of one’s life even if one cannot take complete charge of one’s symptoms…. Recovery is a deeply personal, unique process of changing one’s attitude, values, goals and skills and or/roles.

Steph, have you heard of Chantix? It's a drug that helps you quit smoking. I'm guessing it's in Canada too. My boyfriend chewed tobacco for a few years and before that he smoked for years. He took it and hasn't chewed since sometime in the middle of last year. He had vivid dreams while he was on it, but that was the only side effect he experienced......except now he has this weird burping thing lol. Anyway, I've heard a lot of success stories with it. Just curious if you knew about it.

Congrats to you though. I wish my mom would quit. She's been smoking for 30+ years. I know what she'll be dying from :(