Depression Support

I need to vent. I feel so alone & depressed. MY family tells me to just suck it up. My brother is no help he tells me he can't take dealing with me, that i should slice my wrists and end it he can't take listening to me anymore. He says I don't help myself. I feel how can I when I have no support from others. My mom doesn't really help me either she's good to me but tells me to stop feeling down and help yourself. It looks like other people I see kind of having it hard have someone in there life helping them. But when it comes to me I seem to not have any one. I never really had a true good friend in my life as good and kind hearted I was to them they all were dishonest, played games driving me crazy never really there for me. One friend that I really bother with but very rare is not any better she turns her back on me when I'm down. She tells me people don't want to deal with people like me I only bring others down so sheat times not all the time she  dosesn't answer her phone when I call I leave messages telling her to call me back and she doesn't. When she needs me for something I'm there for her.  She hardly comes out any way  she never wants to do any thing plus she has a controlling boyfriend. All I want  is someone by my side to give me incentive. I have anxiety which makes it hard for me to go to work, I know maybe i would find someone  there which I really feel at times I probably won't . With all the bad luck I had with friends I don't think I will. I just wish someone where some how I could find a good true friend. I very rare get to go out do to the fact that I don't have anyone. I don't know what else to do. Seems like I have to do everything just by myself. Everyone needs someone in there life. I was talking to my cousin and he told me to take a book class but there is nothing in my area for me to get involved in and I would like to do something along with someone. I thank everyone in advance for taking the time to read this. I guess I will be alone forever and probably never find  any one to even marry.

Hi LilyBay,
I know how you feel. I have been alone most of my life. I tend to hold everything in from my family because my teens were hell on them. It's just my mom & I. I'm 37 yrs old & have nothing but depression, & loneliness to hold onto. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here. It will get better, I just can't tell you when. :(

Blessings & Much Love....... Wyn xXx

To both of you...we are here for you! Are there any groups you could join? Support groups? Sometimes there are groups in churches for depression support.

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