Eating Disorders: Anorexia & Bulimia

I am not new to feeling pain and loss in my life. But, I feel like even though the pain is not gone I'm feeling freer. I know that my friend and godfather that passed away are in a better place and watching over me. I realize that they would want me to be happy. It hurts about the break up of my relationship but I'm feeling free from that too. I have less baggage and I can spend more time focusing on myself and school and shaping the life that I really want. I thought I would spend my life with him but with his addictions and being in prison I'm exhausted from the rollercoster ride and I don't deserve to be treated that way. He won't give up her friendship for me knowing it pains me. He doesn't accept me for who I am anymore. He doesn't want to live with me. It's painful to say goodbye and any ending or loss but those are deal breakers and things I refuse to accept any longer. The pain is fading as I am seeing more clearly and feeling free.

Christina

Christina, some of the hard things we go through in life are what shapes us as individuals.  You have started to realize that you have value and deserve to have a better life and that is a wonderfully positive thing.  Endings and losses are very hard to deal with but, as you say, you are now seeing more clearly.  Go out and shape the type of life you really want and enjoy your achievements.  Life is worth living and you are young so enjoy it.  Like you said , you deserve good.