Hi everyone,
I would like to share a little about me. I'm a male and back in mid March I was diagnosed with prostate cancer about a year later after my uncle's death with prostate cancer.From then on,I felt like my head was in a whirlwind having family members telling me that I need to do this or you need to do that.At times I felt like I was being pulled every which way but the right way.The only person who asked me about what I was feeling was the nurse who was in the room with me getting me ready to talk with the Radiation doctor.Everytime I tryed talking to my wife or other family members.All I was hear was you are going to do this and be alright.Well after I had been given the 2 choices between surgery and radiation,I chose surgery.So on July 30 was when I had my surgery and ONLY had been home for 2 weeks and 3 days.The hold time I stayed in so much pain that I nearly ran my wife crazy,so after getting appointment to see the doctor and having them put a cather back in me.We came home and something didn't feel right,so my wife said to me,Why don't you come lay down with me,so I did and as I went to turn to cuddle her I shook like I was having some type of seizure and then felt a big release,then felt something very warm,when i looked down,I was pouring blood from my penis.I jumped up and went into the bathroom and my wife call 911,by the time I reached a local hospital near me which was only 10 min away.I had almost bled out.They had to rush me to surgery to stop the bleeding.Once they did that,they then had me transfered back to the hospital which was an hour away to let the doctors there fix what they did wrong.I can say that I am blessed to still be alive and I am greatful for that.I stayed in that hospital for 2 day before being sent home.2 weeks later I went back for a followup with the doctor who did the surgery and to have the cather removed.The doctor told me that I was a difficult case but he did it and that after taking out my prostate and doing more test on it,that it did show that I had cancer and some of the tumor had started growing into the nerve ending,but he are convenced that he got it all,but will have me to come back in 6 weeks to do another PSA test to made sure.In some way I don't believe him,which i haven't told my wife or any of my family members this.Every since I had my surgery,I never had anyone to ask me was there anything that i need or would like to talk about since I have been through all of this,and I mean No one. I wish that I did,because I am having alot of mixed feelings and are feeling like that I have missed something through all of this.
Thanks for letting me share.Sorry for it being so long.
Howie
