Fibromyalgia & Chronic Fatigue

Jess here... yep, I'm -here-! OMG! :D

Feelin' like death warmed over right now, with a side of pukey-feelings. YUCK! Husband is sick, has a horrible sore throat and I feel so bad for him!

New pills for the little tumor on my pituitary gland SUCK. I wake up almost every single night in a cold sweat due to blood sugar drops caused by the stpid pills, plus I wind up feeling sick to my stomach for a good 1-2 hours every. single. NIGHT. Last night wasn't as bad... but now I've got a full-blown icky cold!

So my house is a sick house. Even our poor cute little puppy is sick! She's been kinda pukey the past few days on & off. I think she ate another slug. Plus she's going thru a growth spurt (almost 5 months old!) and she's exhausted... I suspect it's a combo of all that stuff.

And in the midst of it all? New fridge (yay!), new furniture (which I have to assemble), new windows, new back door, and the in-laws are in town this weekend! AAAH!

I'm actually looking forward to xmas just so I can decorate the house/yard and wrap everything. This year is 90% home-made gifts, so the wrapping/decor is a HUGE part of it.

And since I'll probably be out of work until Jan/Feb at the earliest, why not make everything beautiful while I have the time?! :D

Jax here..... I've just been lurking lately. 

Between work and home I've been pretty tired and not motivated to do more than I have to.  Work is staying steady (which is good!).  With the steady hours at work, the weather changes here (cold and snow one day, and sun and warm -- 50 degrees the next day) and trying to get a few things done around the house -- I'm just tired!

I had surgery on my toes 2 weeks ago to remove bone spurs that have been causing me a lot of trouble and pain.  Ouch!  My poor toes are still swollen and look like little sausages.  They might not be so swollen, but I'm on them 10 hours a day at work.  I'm been coming home and soaking them in an epsom salt foot soak, and then putting an ice pack on them.  I have 2 more days of work this week to make it through and am glad I've been rationing the pain pills doc gave me because I can already tell you when I get home tonight I will be taking one!

My DD and DGS are moving :(.  Even though they will only be 50 miles away I will miss knowing they are down the street.  DD got engaged this week and she and DGS are moving in with her fiance.  Plus she landed a new job, though with her same company it is hopefully a better job with more chance for advancement for her.

Dh's company is doing another weeks layoff this month.  Not good for us.  He is cashing in the last of his vacation time to help cover the loss weeks pay.  Don't know what we will do if they do it again anytime soon.

Dh and I had a heart to heart talk this past weekend and he finally *gets it* about my fibro and oa and why I've been trying to pay off our bills *just in case* I can't continue to work in the future.  There's no way right now we can make it on one income.  It was such a relief to hear he finally understands how the fibro is affecting me and the current limitations of what  the doc and rx's can do.  The doc told me a couple of months ago this is *it* for what can medically be done and to basically suck it up for the rest.  (Whoope! just what I wanted to hear) Dh has been much more helpful and thoughtful in his actions the last several months which has been very nice and taken a lot of frustration away from life. 

I'm still here, still feeling yucky. I can't manage to feel good for more than a few days, if that. It's pretty depressing sometimes. I'm able to work, spend a little time doing things with my family, and get some chores done around the house, but that's about it. I'm a little bummed about it, to be honest. I spent this weekend with a really sore throat, feeling like I'm getting bronchitis, though I did manage to do about 10 loads of laundry. Sigh. My boss inexplicably scheduled me for 60 hours this week, so I'm sure to be totally exhausted. Blah. I hope something changes soon. I think my allergy shots are actually making me feel worse, since I've been trying to get them twice a week to speed up the effect, but it's not really having the desired results.

I actually had a much easier time working when my DH was staying home with the kids, since he did most of the house work, cooking, etc. Now, he comes home tired and only cooks on my weekends off and when it's absolutely necessary. He's been really frustrated about his job, both the low pay and the lack of ethics around the place, so he's been a pain lately. I want to start taking yoga, but it would mean leaving my kids on my nights off to take the classes, and I don't see them as much as I'd like to as it is, so I sort of have a choice to make between doing something that my doctor is sure will make me feel better or spending time with my kids. Of course, all I do with my kids is sit around, so it's a little less than quality, if you know what I mean. And I'm getting fat, too.

Blah.