New to this board, but not to this issue. I have GH and have had it for well over 10 years. I contracted it before I married my DH. I told him straight up and yes, he was concerned and had many questions, but it wasn't a deal breaker. The more you know and the more you are aware of your body - it lessens your chances of transmitting it to another. My DH does not have it and I make sure if I have an outbreak - he knows.
I have two kids, had them vaginally with no complications and they are both fine. Also, I just recently had an outbreak (most likely due to major stress and lack of sleep) and I honestly can't remember the last time I had one! I had to call the doctor to get a prescription and the nurse had a hard time locating the last time I had one too!
In the beginning I felt exactly like you, but it does get better. And when you do find that special someone - be honest and informative. If this special someone is the right one - it WON'T be a deal breaker!
It gets much better and easier to live with! Just take it one day at a time! I wish you well!
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