Lesbian Life

Well 25th came as a one to remember!

My friend came down, the one that I have feelings for with her 'friend'. I found out that they are just seeing where things go, in my friends words. Kinda sucks really. But we had lots of drinks, lots of laughs and then me and her went for a walk and sat down to talk.

See one thing that confuses me is that she always asks if I will keep the house that I have now? Or will I ever move from where Im living, town wise? An then lastnight while sitting on the curb while talking she said 'after jimmy and jade (my dogs) expire (yes I know, but this is after drinks lol) WE wont get anymore'. Whats up with all these things?? Or maybe Im reading in to them all wrong? I dunno, anyone got any ideas? Another thing too is she always wants to play fight, physically hard out, we pin each other and yea. Not something I or she does with other friends.

After more sitting and just talking about nothing I said 'you know, I still like you'. And she said 'but you live here and I live there' i said 'so'. At this point her friend and another showed up, converstation over. And I walked off. We texted, she said we will get our chance to talk, she promises that. But now she has left with her 'friend' to go back up home.

Im just tired of the mixed signals and trying to work out what the hell she thinks. I dont have the courage to ask her, Im scared of it being weird (even though it wasnt last time we had a talk about our feelings) But I dunno.

She hasnt had a relationship in a year, just girls that she is 'friends' with or 'seeing how it goes'.

On a different note!! I enjoyed some alcholic beverages lastnight, Im not a big drinker its been months and months since the last time but I thought why the hell not! It was an awesome night....... however :-D have a laugh ladies...

I after 10 beers (I know!) went to walk back outside, Ive always been scared of rolling my ankle off our deck, which is only like a foot high. I had never done it before. Till lastnight. I walked out and so I was told rolled my ankle on the deck and landed on my other knee on the concret below. Now everyone just kinda staired at me for a while wondering why I wasnt getting up lol. Then my sober friend came over and realised I was in PAIN. So out came the frozen veges and another beer.

So today Im great! I got sunburnt (which will tan nicely later), I have a fat knee with a huge graze on that and my ankle on that leg too. And my other ankle is swollen largely and hurts to walk, but I can put weight on it and move it so Im sure thats a good sign.

If this was 25 cant imagine what 30 will be like!! Might wrap myself in bubble wrap for that one ;-). Still it was a GREAT one.

Should've had more drinks...I heard once that God looks after drunks and small children, you must'nt have been drunk enough.

This girl, if you like her like that, why don't you just say...life is too short you just got to jump and hope for the best. How far does she live away and does she live in the city is that why the questions about the dogs?

I'm glad you were with friends for your special day...25 yep a way distant memory

Haha I love it boots! I should have had more ;-).

Yea I am planning on telling her, she wants to finish our talk an wants me to go up and stay at her place. Thinking of doing this in a couple of weeks time. Is it rude to say to her Id rather just hang out with her alone?

Na she doesnt live in a city, she just never had dogs around. But she loves my dog and he loves her tones. She lives about 3-4 hour drive away, its a nice drive. And I know distance can be hard but it could help to go in to it slowly like that, our own space etc. I dunno.

I guess she has not given me any reason to doubt the mixed signals, but then ya cant count the chickens before the eggs hatch either.

We had a lil joke going about if we not with anyone when we 30 we will get together, 2-3 kids, a dog who sleeps in the garage or outside and a beach wedding lol. Good for a laugh ;-).

Any pointers on talking face to face about feelings? Im so not that girl, I mean I talk about feelings over texting haha. Sad but true and not the right way to go about it.

Thanks heaps boots :-) hows things going for you?

I haven't had much experience chatting up girls, I've only had **wink, wink** feelings for one, and that's Gal, and that worked out super for me/us!

Be honest with her and yourself, and put it out there what you want...if you want the house, with kids, a dog and the beach imagine it. It will happen.

Gal had feelings for me, more than friends feelings  but it took awhile before I woke up to the fact, when I did we had lots of fun flirting and stealing the odd touch or look that lingered longer than it should've.

Still she was too scared to say anything in case she lost me as a friend...well I'm never going to be accused of being a shrinking violet and told her one day I felt something for her and had done a ask.com search on "am I lesbian?" well the rest the say is history.

That said though it took me a long time to actually work out this was what I wanted, we were both married with kids so there was lots of stuff to consider.

But you're young, determined and know what you want your one up on a lot of people in this world.

I just posted to ll "24" and I'm scared witless, full of anticipation, excited and everything else rolled in to one!

Holey cow, it's a good thing you landed on your knee and not your head!! But LOL, Happy Belated Birthday!!!  I roll my ankle really good about once a year so I share that worry with ya!!

Sounds like this girl has feelings for you. Wonder if maybe she's tried long-distance relationships already and knows she doesn't like them? It's definitely not for everyone..