It's not just you...believe me, I can sympathize. I'm 47 and started putting on a little weight each year after turning 40. At first, it wasn't a big deal because I'm tall. (you kinda get away with it a little longer when you have a little height.) I've gone from a size 8 to an 18/20!!!! I'm not eating any more than I ever did...in fact it feels as if I eat less. I attended weight watchers and joined a gym, after 3 months I lost a whopping 4 pounds!!!! (so of course... I quit!) I'm tired ALL the time, and I look terrible. (btw I'm 5'9" so at 18/20, I now look like Sasquatch) My 30 yr HS reunion is this weekend and as you see, I'm on the computer instead! I hide when I see people I know, in the hopes that they didn't see me, and won't talk about how enormous I am now.
I know it's sad. The movie quote I identify most with is John Travolta in Hairspray, when "she" says she can't leave the apt b/c the "last time the neighbors saw me, I wore a sz 10!!"
I avoid mirrors these days, as well. Ten years ago, I would get compliments from random strangers...people always said I looked like Geena Davis. Now I look like someone who ate Geena Davis.
My mom gained an huge amount of weight during menopause, then afterwards, she was able to go from a sz 22 to a 12. (she's 67 now...I pretty much look just like she did 20 yrs ago). Maybe it's easier to lose when all the hormonal nonsense is over? I hope so! There's too much life left to spend the rest of it in hiding!
*sigh* Keep your chin up. I probably haven't helped one bit, but you do have company in your misery. Maybe someone else has advice for the both of us.
