DID/MPD

OMG WOW! I just loked at IVillage one week ago and here you are and others who speak a language that is familiar and somehow gives an odd  peace to me.

I have been diagnosed just a few months ago and am presently working on "blending" I find lots of reasons though this past few weeks not to be able to go and be busy. The others tell me if I tell the secrets they (the dr's) will take me away or I will disappear.

I don't have names for all but know most of them. My husband says he feels there are 7 or 8 that he knows.

I share all your same feelings. The sexual abuse started young and continued very long and was brutal and terrorizing. I though too feel like maybe I made it up - not real it's me remembering scenes from movies maybe cabn't possibly be true.

I pray you find the help and peace you are loking for and if you feel that you can will share some of your insights.

Bless you,

Ginger

Hi and welcome.  I too just found this part of ivillage.  We are new together :)     I have not been diagnosed yet, but do know there is more than one of me inside.   I had a bad childhood, and I know there are parts missing from  my memory.  IDK if i am repressing abuse worse than the verbal and emotional type.  I hope not, as I really loved my daddy and miss him now that he is gone.  It was my mother that was abusive.  But she and my one sibling act like he was a monster, and they dont understand why I loved him.  I hope it is just their perspective.  My personality is like his, and my sibling's personality is like my mother.  My mother always wanted me to hate him, maybe just because she did? 

Anyway, I hope we both find some help and peace here.  Seems like a great start :)    

Hi,  I am new and wish you so much peace and healing.   Your past sounds so much worse than mine.   I have not yet started therapy, and know I have locked memories up inside..  dont know how for sure I know, its just there are missing pieces, you know?   I know that is one of the reasons I am afraid to begin therapy. 

I, too,  am so glad I found a place where I could speak about my life and not feel like a freak.   So well said!