DID/MPD

  I am coming to understand that I have two personas.  I dont know which is the real ME and which is not?  This is so new to me.. only 4 years that I am aware of.  Well, I DO know that the me that lives in my body and leads my normal life is real.  But the other, who feels so much more like how I think and feel, is not able to live in the real world.  She helps me keep sane.  IDK how to deal with all this.  It is every day making me feel out of control, hyper, crazed, like I feel like I could lose my mind.  These outbursts only last for 1 to 10 minutes, but I want to learn how to make them go away. 

Does anyone know what I mean?  Any advice?  Thanks :)   

I too am new completely to I Village and message boards, I have never done this before. Funny that I am here first!

I feel so bad though for scared and lost. My heart truly goes out her, thank you for suggesting reading materials.

This past year after working with therapists I have been told I have likely 8 other me's, some are wonderful and some get me into some trouble. I am learning to blend and stay present.

Therapy or someone trusted to talk to is so helpful, exercises to stay present, inner agreements with the other parts of me allowing each of them time has been helpful when I am present enough.

This is so tender a subject I will be having thoughts of peace for those struggling, it has been challenging this past year to become aware and to terms with these other people living within me.

I think for me the oddest part was becoming aware of the child like personalities and how I felt I became smaller, my hands and arms felt odd, my words and language changed dramatically. My sweet husband has been an angel and knows well the many different girls and women and even a young boy that live within me and he has been wonderfully supportive in staying "PRESENT"

GOOD LUCK on your journey,

I am having such conflicting thoughts about the blending.... it is so weird but I miss the others, even the crazy wild girl inside. I have a new "mother" that has shown up My therapist calls her an ISH Inner Self Helper, to keep me on track. I just don't feel like me anymore. I was so used to the voices and the excitement that came at times. I loved the innocence and fun that came with the small girls. I didn't like the memory lapses or being so sorry for not being there for people, but I miss them. Is that ok? Have you ever felt that?

What's next? Who is the real one and wil she be some of all of them or just one robot of a person? I want to be good and do the right things but not loose passion about life.

Thank you for being there