So in a nut shell, my parent divorced when I was two. From the age of 7 I was involved in a bitter custody battle between my crack head mom and my young father. My dad go custody and also remarried. He got a job transfer so he commuted out of state during weekenda. Stepmom became the wicked witch of the west. During 2 and 7 I lived with my grandparents and was molested by a 5 year older uncle. I am now 24 I have graduated from high school and college, only doing what was expected of me. I have always felt alone. There is a saying that you can feel more alone in a room full of 20 people and feel more alone than in a room by yourself. I long for lasting relationships, but when I get then in a months time I've turned against them. I long to go out with ppl, but make excuses when invited. Again im 24 but have two dui. I drink when im bored and to get excited. I feel that I can tolerate ppl more when iv been drinking. I have been on xanax (sp) before after a period of panic attacks. I didn't like the way it felt and I don't want to be medicated. I've quit drinking and ppl find me unpleasent to be around. I'm so lost as to what to do. Someone please give me some advice
Hi! If you're miserable & need to make changes in your life, I would suggest you see a therapist. There you will find a professional who will be objective & supportive. You will learn the basis of your discomfort & new ways of coping. For now, learning to live w/out drinking is in your best interest. You might consider visiting the Addictions board: http://messageboards.ivillage.com/iv-bhalcohol GL & GBU! (((hugs))) jan
