Hello everyone,
My name is November. I am 45 years old and have a beautiful family. A husband of 25 years, two grown children and a most precious granddaughter, who is the stars that shine in the sky to me.
About a year ago I noticed something was not right with me. I started keeping a journal. The symptoms of PMDD were beginning to emerge. I had never had PMS before or any other significant problems with my menstruation cycle. In keeping this journal what was happening to me was getting worse. About a week before my periods I had become a different person. After my period began I was me again.
I knew something was wrong. The symptoms were gradual in coming but increasing with every month. Now I have every single symptom and my periods are disabling me. This time the swelling in my joints was so bad for three days I could not hardly move.
This was it the breaking point I had had enough and was ready to become proactive in getting rid of what ever this was. I just wanted everyone to go away. A vacation for them from me. I needed to be alone. I could not go to work. I could not even get up to start a load of laundry if my life depended on it.
I hated myself although I have read some women become suicidal I have not felt that. Every single task was like trying to swim across one of the great lakes. I thought I cannot do this, honestly I do not have time for it. This time the reasoning, rational, and meditation I had used in the past was not working. How much worse was I going to get?
I finally went to the doctor. I told her my brief little synopsis of what had been happening. Within 10 minutes I was diagnosed with PMDD. We began discussing treatment options. Birth Control pills came up. I told her no. I am 45 never having kids besides my tubes had been tied and to me this option was counter productive. The next option was fluxotine. I was not thrilled with this either. Prozac for something that happens a week a month? This was not going to sit well with me either. She came up with another idea. How about a depo shot. Just stop the periods seens how that is what is causing the symptoms. I thought is she kidding sign me up!
I agreed to the Prozac for two months until the Depo is sufficiently in my system. I am not sure how this will all turn out but to me at my age was the most logical solution. Actually I thought just removing the spare parts would of been more to my liking. That was not offered.
I have been reading a lot about this condition and found somethings that clearly have not made a lot of sense to me. PMDD is listed in the DSM-IV as a psychological condition that pissed me off. Understanding that ovulation creates this condition to me this does not qualify the condition as a psychological disorder.
The treatment option I picked is fairly new. I have not even read where it has been offered on many of the medical sites. It will be interesting to see if that does the trick. I was wondering if anyone else here has tried it?
-November