Hey Kelly!
Thanks for asking...I am hanging in there.....had a HORRIBLE day last Thursday---cried all day.....my battery in my car died and I am standing there in Pep Boys sobbing....the guy must've thought I was crazy---Leanna said it best--it's like the rest of the world just goes on---and you are left with this miserable sense of grief, confusion, anger, etc. and somedays are just AWFUL---but I know that time will help.....and I still desperately want to pursue adoption-- I know that adoption is not a cure for infertility---but I have longed for a another baby for so long...and tried EVERTYHING I know to have anothe biological child and God keeps leading me back to adoption--- I am working on updating our homestudy---hard to believe it has been 2 years since we completed it.....where does the time go? We have had 6 losses in 5 years----and the year before my first miscarriage I lost my brother to a sudden heart attack--he was only 30 yrs. old----after so much loss--I just want some JOY---some new life----and I know that adoption would be a wonderful way of fulfilling my dream--and also bless another mother--who is unable to take care of her child.....just praying that God will soften my dh 's heart and provide financially so that we can bring our miracle baby home!
again, thanks so much to you and all the wonderful ladies on this board who have offered such kind words during the horrible time....
