Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

Thankyou for your response.  I was offline for sometime as had to change my IP and am now with Xplornet.

You seem to have a certain insight into matters of the mind.  My road though mine; is not unique and I'm thankful to no that as living as a multiple is still sometimes a very lonley place.  Some people think of me as one way while others way off the map.

My husband knows them all.  There are 12 and I count as the extra or the host therefore the tag multiplicity13.

 When I get sick, or when I take on too much then the alters become the principle players from time to time and they do work as a team.  I am truly thankful to each and every one of my alters for what they have done for me and carried for me for most of my life.  I'm being given some of my memories by one or the other of my alters and this is by rapid telepathic type of communication along with interior visions now being brought to the surface of my mind.

For the most part my life is much more stable.  Have to be careful not to spend too much time alone.  My husband is truly my best friend as well as my beloved.

It's difficult to be so introspective as leaves me feeling vulnerable.  Do you know what I mean?

I am glad that you have made your way back here!

It's good to know that your alters are all cooperating and functioning as a team. I know that it can get pretty tricky when alters disagree with each other. It's great also that your alters trust your husband enough and are comfortable with him enough to allow him to get to know them.

It's important for everyone - PTSD or not, MPD or not - to take care of themselves, make sure that they stay grounded, etc but for you it sounds that you have to be even more aware of how you are. It must not have been easy for you at the beginning, but it looks like you understand and are accepting of all of this.

Yes, I do understand that being too introspective can make us feel or become vulnerable. It's okay to look back to the past, but we've got to plant ourselves firmly in the present, and keep reminding ourselves that our lives are now in the present where we are safe and loved and strong.