Lora,
I understand completely where you are coming from. After what happened to me, I colored my blonde hair to dark brown, hoping it would make me not so noticable. I stopped fixing it the cute styles that I did before. I stopped exercising, because I wanted my body to not be attractive to anyone else. I stopped wearing shorts and tank tops, I still do not wear them as much as I use to. I know for me, it is a saftey issue, I feel if I hide myself, and not appear attractive then guys will not notice me, then nothing will happen to me again. I know this is a silly way of thinking, but it helps me to stay comfortable in public. I just now started working out again. I just now feel comfortable enough to go apply for a part time job, but it is not working with any men. I do not think I will ever feel comfortable enough to work with men in a small setting. BUT I do know that it is not healthy for me to gain weight and hid beneath fear...I am working on it. Take your time and know that your are not alone.
Hugs...Liz
