Rape Survivors

So I'm turning to this because my counselor is out of town this week. I was raped 11 months go at a fraternity party. I had had a few drinks and I think I was drugged, I remember bits and peices. I took the jerk to my college's judicial hearing. That definately didn't go well. They didn't do crap. Not enough proof blah blah. This jerk is in the ROTC so now everytime i see anyone in a uniform i freak, same with backwards baseball caps. The worst part is I see him everywhere on campus. I changed majors so i wouldn't have to go to this one building anymore because i saw him there several times and it was tainted. The whole school is tainted. Sometimes I want to drop out, i mean I don't really want to, but some days it just gets to be too much. This is the first time I've written about this since the report i sent to the judicial board and i realize it's kind of disjointed, sorry.

so i guess i'm doing well considering. I am getting help and i have a very supportive family and boyfriend. I'm struggling with an alcohol problem on and off now though, it's really hard to deal with in college. I get insomnia pretty regularly now.. like tonight for instance. My nightmares definately occur a lot less though. Now they very rarely include anything from the actual rape, instead they've transformed into a reoccuring nightmare in which i get chased down by an enormous tornado.. i haven't told my counselor about that one yet.

I just don't know what to do anymore, it's like i can't think through anything properly. Does anyone else feel like that? Like it takes way too much energy to plan something as simple as gettting laundry and errands done in the same day? I thought I would be better than this by now! When will my life feel normal again?

Thanks for reading my venting... it's helped just to write this all down and know that someone out there is going to read it and care.

hey there angry fem. I too was drug raped by a frat group. I'm so sorry you are going through this. your school should have free counseling for students as well as a rape crisis center or student support group.

My site lists most of that info:
http://www.ibiblio.org/rcip/

http://www.ibiblio.org/rcip//crisiscenters.html#messageboards

Are you in crisis right now?
You can call the National Sexual Assault Hotline, operated by RAINN, 24 hours a day at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673), or you can search for your local rape crisis center. If you are in danger call 911.

Basic hotlines:

Rape Crisis 1.800.656.HOPE (4673)
Self Injury 1.800.DON'T.CUT (366-8288)
Suicide Hotline 1.800.SUICIDE (784.2433)
Domestic Violence 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Gay & Lesbian 1.800.THE.GLNH (843.4564)

Hotlines for teens
http://gromit.westminster.lib.co.us/teen/hotlines_help_services.htm
Crisis hotlines
http://www.cumberlandlibrary.org/hotlines.htm

Catagories of hotlines and websites
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Rape Crisis - 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

To find a rape crisis center near you click here.

http://www.rainn.org/counseling.html

Or call 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) and ask them to look it up for you. Feel free to ask to speak to a woman.

A world wide directory of International abuse and crisis help lines

Very comprehensive.

http://www.hotpeachpages.org/World/world.htm

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Self Injury - 1-800-DON'T-CUT (366-8288)

How to stop self injuring in an emergency.

http://crystal.palace.net/~llama/selfinjury/fself.html
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Suicide hotlines - 1.800.SUICIDE (784.2433)

If you're feeling depressed or suicidal now and need to talk to

someone, we're here to listen.

http://www.befrienders.org/index.htm

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The Gay & Lesbian National Hot Line 1-800-THE-GLNH

Gay and lesbian hotline

http://www.glnh.org

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Domestic Violence Hotline - 1.800.799.SAFE(7233)

Find help in your state

http://www.4woman.gov/violence/state.cfm

http://www.dvsheltertour.org/helpusa.html

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Women's Health - 1.800.994.WOMAN

FREE, reliable health information for women everywhere

http://www.4woman.gov/
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Find your local police station

Google local search

http://local.google.com/local

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Is there someone you can call for moral support?

http://www.anywho.com/

Are you in need of a hospital? Do you need to call a taxi?

Look up the phone number and address here.

http://local.google.com/lochp

If you need directions to their house or a local hospital click here.

http://www.mapquest.com/directions/main.adp

What to do if you are raped.

http://kidshealth.org/teen/your_mind/problems/rape_what_to_do.html

RAINN information on what to do if you are raped.

http://www.rainn.org/whatshould.html

It wasn't your fault.

http://www.hopeheals.me.uk/21.html

INTERNATIONAL HOTLINES

World wide / International abuse and crisis help lines -

RAINN International

http://www.rainn.org/rccs.html

Rainn international hotlines

Abuse helplines

http://www.abusehelplines.org/

International crisis hotlines

http://members.aardvark.net.au/~korman/kfp/

International hotlines

http://www.alltheseyears.net/international.htm

Hotlines- International

http://www.pandys.org/aphroditewounded/hotlines.html

Pandora's Aquarium searchable hotline posts

http://pandys.org/forums/index.php?showtopic=2982

International directory of crisis hotlines in wonderful threads in pandys. In order to search this thread please use this search function
http://pandys.org/forums/index.php?act=Search&f=
and limit it. Type in the location and the word hotlines. Before hitting enter select wonderful threads. When it brings you to the thread your search terms will be highlighted in bright yellow and easier to see.

If you are a student free counseling is probably available through your University. For rape crisis information for your school try this google search. Please enter the name of your University. Example : Rape and LSU and Counseling

Suggested steps in healing: advice from other rape survivors

(if you have an emergency please call 911):

1. The first thing you should know if you were raped or sexually assaulted is that it was not your fault.

2. You can call the National Sexual Assault Hotline, operated by RAINN, 24 hours a day at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673), or you can search for your local rape crisis center. You can also find hotlines at http://www.rainn.org. If you call RAINN they will refer you to a local hotline operator. You can also choose which crisis center you contact by looking up the number here. Feel free to request to speak to a woman. Call 911 if you need to report a sexual assault to the police or are in danger now.

World Wide Directory of Abuse Lines

http://www.hotpeachpages.net/index.html

3. Online support group message boards are recommended as a good first step (if you are not ready to talk in person). You also need to speak to a rape crisis counselor or therapist. Find survivor message boards here:

http://www.ibiblio.org/rcip//crisiscenters.html#messageboards

4. You may want to seek free counseling from your local rape crisis center, or free student counseling from your university. Find rape crisis centers here:

http://www.rainn.org/centers/index.html

Police reports are not mandatory if you speak to a rape crisis counselor.

5. Seek treatment from a trained therapist specializing in Rape Trauma Syndrome as soon as possible. RAINN also provides therapist referrals. Find a therapist near you here:

http://www.mentalhealth.org/databases/default.asp This Locator provides you with comprehensive information about mental health services and resources and is useful for professionals, consumers and their families, and the public. You may also call The American Psychological Association- for a referral 1-800-964-2000.

take care, pixie

glad you found us and sorry about the circumstances that brought you here. it will get easier i promise that one it does take time though.
have you considered changing schools i know it seems drastic but if it helps it is worth it. i moved to a different part of thge counrty just because random encounters or just the idea of them were so debilitatig.
keep uis posted on how things are going please

melisa