Stress & Women

I remember after going through cancer surgery this summer and came out okay, I still did not want to be alone.  I think your desire to be close to your husband is a good thing/a natural response.  Also, being weepy is to be expected for both of you.  Perhaps your fear of anxiety returning is what's actually causing some of the symptoms to return.  Maybe you might want to just touch base with the doctor that prescribed the meds before, and tell him/her that you would prefer to do this without the aid of meds.  Sometimes just knowing that the option is there, if needed, will help alieviate some of the anxiousness.  

I know with panic attacks, it's the fear of the attack that often brings on the attack.

I'm sorry that you and your husband are having to go through this.  Many folks feel that all of the tradition is beneficial to the person grieving, as transitioning through closure.  Other folks feel the opposite, that it drags out the grief.  I'm not sure how I feel about it.  I know that I want to be remembered but not at the risk of my loved ones mental health.  Very confusing. 

There is also a grief board on ivillage.  You might want to look it over too.  Though it is a pleasure to meet you angiemax, I'm sorry that it is under this circumstance.

Blessings to you and your family.