Welcome, tunatartar! :)
Susanne gave some excellent advice to you! I am sorry you are feeling so depressed right now, trust me, I know how that feels. However, realize that the more stress you put yourself under, the harder it will be for you to get focused and lose the weight you want to lose. I think the first thing you should do is let go of the feelings of guilt and embarassment, and how you think your family and friends are going to react. What we perceive things to be usually is alot worse than it actually ends up being. Besides, worrying about their reactions will serve you no useful purpose, you know? It will just add to your stress.
Try starting slowly. Exercise the way that you enjoy most, be it at the gym, going for walks, swimming, a favorite aerobic tape at home, you get the idea. Eat well, avoid foods you know you will bring you trouble: fast food, cookies, chips, sodas, etc. Eat when you are hungry, stop when you are full (and by full, I don't mean to the point of bursting!) Stay focused on you, be realistic, and how you feel, and those 10lbs will start to drop off.
We're here for you, so anytime on your journey towards weight loss you need a shoulder or someone to talk to, come on by! :)
Good luck and best wishes!
Ginna
