It's embarrassing to admit how far from the grace I have fallen but the huge reason why I need to be back on this board is to have a safe place to "get real" and deal with the issues I've been having with food.
For example:
Here's what I've eaten so far today-
-bowl of cheerios with 1/2 a banana and nonfat milk
-fun size hershey bar, 6 whoppers
-McDonald's grilled chicken sandwich, no mayo
-1 cup vanilla ice cream, chocolate sauce and 2 T. chunky PB
-no water, no drinks at all
It's crazy and all over the place, I know! I tend to do well at having a decent, healthy meal but my "snacks" are off the charts! I need to familiarize myself with the keys again and see where I'm falling short. Obviously, I need to clean out my kitchen some. The kids Halloween candy has been tempting me and we have ice cream leftover from DH's birthday party.
I really want to have that same sense of control that I had that led me to lose 50 lbs on this board in the first place (2-3 years ago.) I am proud of myself for being able to keep within a 10 lb range of my goal weight. I haven't gone back up past 140 since I first lost the weight but a lot of that has to do with running so much. I really want to feel like I'm treating my body well by what I'm putting in it.
I'm really hoping that getting involved on this board again will help me to start putting things back together.