I hope you are still using this for communication... I noticed your post was a few weeks ago. But anyhow, I am exactly the same way. I only eat when others are not around... and I know it's not healthy. I will eat endless amounts of food when my roommate is out of the house or when she is sleeping. It makes me feel good at the time, but afterward I feel like crap. I am sick of my behavior and the negative feelings I have toward myself afterward. You are NOT alone. I just started seeing a counselor about this issue today and it has been occurring for nearly 4 years. Have you talked to anyone else about this before? Because I haven't, even though I have seen a counselor for depression for about 5 years now.