Anger Management

I've been feeling great for the past week - patient, enjoying my kids, basically being the parent I want to be. But when I went for my session today we ended up having an intense 2 hours going through childhood stuff. She said she was waiting for a week when I didn't have anything pressing to talk about so we could start getting to the bottom of some things.

One of the things this week was something I posted about the other day - why does it make me SO mad when I feel another person is "playing the victim"? I have more work to do on this myself, but it certainly seems to be linked to being bullied at primary school, and all the times I suffered sexual abuse - not just from my mother's bf, but also all those nameless men on trains who exposed themselves, chased me and otherwise harassed me because I was a child travelling alone. Even though I thought I'd forgiven a lot of this it turns out I still have plenty of residual anger - at my teachers for not intervening in the bullying (which was severe), and at my parents for being so neglectful that I experienced so many crappy, frightening and downright UNFAIR situations.

So yes more work to do - but I'm glad that I'm finally working on this stuff. I'm 35 years old now and I don't want my past interfering with my present any more!

Carol