Everything was so great!! Nearly perfect.Now I feel like a horrible Mommy.
Well, as usually, Clara was eating her normal 40 minutes every two hours...she drained both boobs, and then for whatever reason, i didn't produce anymore milk. Why is this happening??? luckily, i had a tiny bit of formula from a sampler i got in the hospital. i have never had anything harder to do though than to see her tears, and see her beautiful, sad eyes look up at me and practically hear, "mommy, why can't i eat now?" i'm so very sad and depressed over this and i feel like a failure as a mom.
on top of it, my bawling, and hers, kept jeff up when he had to work early this morning. we ended up arguing because blaming myself made him angry with me. then the next thing i know my little bother (i was watching my 4 younger siblings for the week so my parents could go to texas) who's 6 comes in the bedroom with tears in his eyes because all he wants is to sleep but clara won't stop crying.
i don't know what to do. i'm so sad over this.
