Lucky,
I'm with Sherry on this. it's been 5 1/2 years and I ask myself daily. "how do people do this?" I hate. I don't want to do this any more. It hurts to much. I want people around me who understand, but at the same time I don't. It does get easier and yet it doesn't at the same time. You go on because you have to, at least that is what I tell myself.
(((HUGS))) I wish there was a magic answer.