Hey Kendra -
You've had a bumpy road so far - don't count yourself as "not ok" if you're not healed by the time she's 18 months. There is no cut and dry time line for healing, especially if wounds keep getting re-opened for you. You've come so far since first coming on the board. Continue to lean on your achievements. continue to draw strength from them. Yes, the bad happened, but we've moved on and we need to do so with those in the past. They'll always be a part of you but that doesn't mean you have to bring them with you. Think of it this way - it's like a piece of lost luggage. Yeah, you mourn and miss that luggage (to a certain extent) and the things in it were once yours but now they're not. So you make do with what you have and get new things. Except now you're rebuilding yourself instead of a wardrobe and new make-up. You're putting on a coat of strength, a smile instead of a frown, happiness instead of sadness. And you're doing a great job of it too!
It's ok if you stay away. You need to do what's best for you and if that means you don't stop by, we won't be upset. You have to heal first. It's really ok if we're just a stop on that journey. But we'll be sure to leave the lights on for you if you need to come back to vent/ask/share, ok? ((HUGS))
I am so PROUD of you!
Warmest,
Lauren
