Sometimes it's just what you have to do. It isn't easy at all, but the NICU is what your babies need, so that is what you have to do, ya know??? The thing to realize, even tho you are totally itching to get them home, is that you wouldn't be able to give them all the care that they need right now if they were home. It sounds a little harsh....no hurt feelings meant, tho...but the NICU has the special machines and staff that your kiddos need.
The weird thing is that when the doctors start talking about them coming home, you are going to be excited, but nervous all at the same time, because all of a sudden YOU will be the one who is doing the main caring for them. It's down right scary! 'what if this happens', 'what if that happens', 'what if..., what if..., what if...'. One thing another mom on this board recently learned is that if your babies are discharged a little too early and they aren't completely ready for it, they don't get to go back to the NICU. They end up in the PICU and it is a completely different way of life there. The care is totally different and there may be aides there that don't have the experience with a preemie like you would need them to have. So, try your very best to see the good things of the NICU because they are soo very important. This time in your life and in the lives of your children will end up being a special time eventually. My preemie is now 2 and I have to look at the NICU pictures just to remember how small she once was...and how fragile and young.
We often say 'one day at a time'...and if that is too much, then we say 'one hour at a time'...and if that is too much, then we say 'one minute at a time'. But it does eventually pass...you do eventually go home, you babies do eventually grow. One day you will look at them and have a hard time remembering.....I promise. :)
