Stillborn

I should be having a baby today, but I'm not.  If my lost baby (m/c in April) would have survived I would have been 38 weeks today.  My doctor told me after Grace was born, that should I get pregnant again, she wouldn't let me go past 38 weeks.  I'm in a really foul mood and no one even knows why. 

I'll get past it I know.  I'm sure November 16 will also be a joy since that was my due date.  What's really odd is that I haven't given this much thought.  Every once in a while I'd think about the lost baby, but the hole left by Grace is still much larger and more consuming.

Some days it would be really nice if I could just stay in bed.

Joan

Oh Joan,

I am so sorry. When I hit my due date, I was a mess. The day I was supposed to have a c-section, the day I was due, the day I was hoping the baby would come on his own.

I getcha. Those days are hard. Be gentle on yourself.
There are a lot of days that I wish I could stay in bed.

 

 

Lunarbean Mom to

Daniel (5)

Sarah (2)

Baby boy - Miscarried @ 19 weeks May 21, 2008

Baby Nicholas - born still @ 24 weeks - May 25, 2009

Baby - miscarried October 2009

Joan

I am so sorry... dates, due dates, dates of birth, dates of death and Holidays are ALL so hard. All I can say is I can relate and I am so sorry.
I will keep you in my prayers.

Susan

Mommy to Gracie, stillborn, 2/19/08 a miscarriage 01/2007 and Conor here on Earth 02/15/194