Losses of what might have been are always the most difficult to handle. It is part of why we struggle with death- the lack of knowing what "might have happened". This is true EVEN when ther has been great suffering. We can not stop but think...."what if". When there is sterilization- whether planned or disease related or menopause related, we are thrust into a "what if" situation. We wonder about children that might have been, even if we were pretty certain or VERY certain we did not want any more.
You need to grieve this loss, as you are....... but also to talk as frankly as you can about these emotions with your SO. I am here if you need a shoulder..........
Yes you are VERY blessed to have your child- as your child is blessed to have a mother that can feel so deeply. If you and your SO think, in years to come, that the wrong choice has been made please consider adoption- or even in vitro with a donor (As your eggs still work).
And maybe in time you will more firmly believe your family is complete as is. And once the overwhelming emotion of this moment in time passes, you will be greatful for his actions.
Good luck to you-
laura
cl-rian2003 
