It happens this time of year EVERY year..... holiday blahs.
I LOVE the holidays, but can't stand the ritual argument my SO and I have every year. It all revolves around me not wanting to go to his parent's house. I send the kids but when I think of going I get a lump in my throat and feel like throwing up. Four years ago 3 of them picked an awful fight with me- calling me a "bad mother" (I was in a rush to leave after a 2 hour visit so we could see other relatives as well- my son had also been ill and I was worried). One of them actually said that they hoped my SO wised up and left me. There is more to the long battle that happened than just those few words, but it scared and scarred me. I can not look at any Christmas photos from that year because the pain of that fight and the tears that lasted for days after my daughters first Holidays have never left.
So here I am , days away from Thanksgiving and yet ANOTHER argument to come about the evil woman I am not wanting to visit these people who wish me ill.
Blech
laura
cl-rian2003 
