First off, Congrats on your healthy baby boy.
Secondly, I honestly felt like that was me typing that post just over a year and a half ago when we found out Keegan would be baby boy number 3. Only thing is we really hadn't done much swaying like you so I only imagine that makes it much harder.
I will say you will go through up and down days. It will be a whirlwind of emotions. And of course being that you are pregnant it will be harder to deal with those emotions. :(
Know we are here to talk and listen to you vent.
I am so, so sorry. :(