Sorry all for not being around much, trying to prepare for Junior's 1st birthday on the 17th. Thank you all for this board and for talking about how you feel and cheering up and being there for me. Please feel free to contact me via email, the address has actually had to be changed so it's barelyberlee@yahoo.com. I really wish they wouldn't take this board away, if they only knew how much women need to talk about their feelings after such a HUGE loss. Look forward to hearing from you all.