Pet Bereavement

Well My lil boy tomorrow it will be one month since I held you,kissed you ,told you I love you.. Even though the calendar shows a month has passed for me its still stuck on "that day". I knew you did not feel well but I never in my life thought I would leave the vets office without you,if so I might not of even taken you. I had asked you a couple of days before that day to show me a sign if you were tired of living,I have to believe in my heart your sign to me was when you laid down on the vets table and seemed comfortable but yet never attempted to get up. I know in my heart you were telling me "its time mom ,I'm tired".

I picture you now running in an open field filled with green grass and flowers and how awesome it must be for you to be able to see all the wonders of heaven. You can now hear all your other new furr angel  friends ,you can now see the beautiful sights God has made for you. You no longer feel pain when you run, the only thing you feel now is love .

I heard this song today and it reminded me so much of you, "Everything I do I do it for you" . Everything I did for the past 16years was for you my friend. When you left me that day you took my heart ,keep it close to your heart and we will never be further then a heart beat away from each other. As the lyrics to the song goes, theres no love,like your love.. Your love filled my life with joy, and yes I would of died for you,if losing my life would of saved your life that day it would of been my honor to lay down my life for you so you could live, you meant that much to me. You were the sunshine of my day,you gave my life meaning,as long as I knew you were with me,I was never alone, Our hearts beat as one.

So my friend,remember always keep the wind in your ears,like when you would put your head out the window when we went for a ride, always take care of your new furr angel friends,take care of them barkley because their furr moms are my friends and they miss their babies as much as I miss you,so treat them well and look out for them. Always keep the sun in your face so you can feel Gods love. And look inside your heart and soul when your missing me and  when you  find me there you'll search no more.

I keep you close to my heart at all times,can you hear my heartbeat? can you tell my heart is broken? I miss you more today then I ever thought possible. Your love is something I will treasure for the rest of my life, thank you for allowing me to take care of you,you did so much more for me then I ever did for you.

So to my love,my lil bud. here is your song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGoWtY_h4xo

I LOVE you Barkley,your mom

{{{^Barkley's^ Mom}}}  These milestone days are so, so hard.  Geez, there's an understatement if I ever heard one.  {{{hugs}}}  First, we count the hours, then days, weeks, months... and years.  :( 

A tear came to my eye, as you realized when & how your precious ^Barkley^ let you know it was "time".  {{{hugs}}}  It's only a loving furmom who would truly understand what her sweet angel was saying.  Oh ^Barkley's^ Mom, I know he will love you forever for having the strength to release him from his tired body.  It's just so sad, that once our beloved's pain ends... ours begins....

I love ^Barkley's^ song.  How very true.  {{{hugs}}}  Like you, everything I did, I did for my ^Whisper^ and ^Wonder^.   Oh
^Barkley's^ Mom, I know it doesn't seem even remotely possible right now, but in time... lots and lots of time.... you will be able to think of your beloved furangel and smile, instead of cry.  I promise.  It's our sweet angels who'll make sure of it.

With my heart,
  , ^Whisper^ & ^Wonder's^ Mom

Whisper in the Heart

Barkley's Mom - I wish with all my heart that I could offer you words of comfort, but as you well know, I am still in the same boat as you. I miss Stuart so much it hurts to breath, and other times it hurts so bad that I wish I wasn't breathing at all. May sound crazy, but it's how I feel. Your song to Barkley was beautiful, and made me remember all the things we all do for our pets. We don't even realize how much we live our lives for them until they are gone.

My broken heart wishes so badly to comfort yours. It hasn't even been 2 months since my Stuart left me so I know I wouls be unsuccessful in my attempt. Hang in there dear friend - and remember...you aren't alone.