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Sorry I haven't posted for awhile!
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7051.3 in response to 7051.1
oh rochelle....
I have lost so many people i loved in my life... its a sad twisted story... but the count is currently holding at 4.. and i was there for ALL of them.. and i WISHED EACH AND EVERYTIME that i wasnt there... IT IS NOT SELFISH to not want to see what isnt the woman you remember(i guess)... my 1st hubby died sitting right behind me as i played on the puter,,,, went w/o a sound or movement... and I WISH to this day that it hadnt been me who found him that way,,, but there was only 2 of us and well there was no one else...
its hard to see the shell of the person... and I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND ..
DO NOT FEEL BAD for feeling the way you do...