I recently broke up with my now-to-be-ex boyfriend for a few months. I always wonder when I was with him for 5 years relationship whether I want to spend the rest of my life with him, lets get to the bottom line, I had an orgasm (when he was on top) ONCE in 5 yrs relationship i remember It felt amazing and the rest of our sex I have to be on the top to help myself come , and after long time no hope of he-is-on-top it did not happen at all. At one point I got so bored it was like you remember where to turn to your office when we are driving. but the thing is I always had problem getting turn on by him I believe my lack of orgasm partially because I was not attracted to him that much. it did not feel nice when he touched my body or kissed me. Ok my question is do i make the right decision to break up with someone who dearly love me so much just because I cant find the happiness in bed and intimacy with him? I can get back to him at any second as I always wonder if i was wrong about my decision, I am sort of indecisive type of girl and I am not proud of this bit, and one more thing I feel guilty more than anyone could imagine of having to leave someone because only one reason I dont feel fulfilling in bed and intimacy.
wonderinggoorstay