Like a Virgin

i'm not in a relationship, and i am sick of waiting. i've been engaged, and therefore almost been able to have sex 3 separate times.

thoughout this time i have had a longterm friend, who is not of the same beliefs, and although a virgin too, is not one by choice. we met when we were young and have stayed in contact online as we have grown up. over the years from time to time we have shared sexual fantasies, and had both cyber and phone sex. after talking alot about it together recently, i am considering having sex with him.

i can't wait to have sex any longer. the last guy i was with and i were alot more physical than i was used to, and it's like he flipped a switch inside me, and i can't stop wanting it.

should i settle for a great guy who wants me, or hold out on hope?

No one can tell you when to have sex or who to have it with.  You have to do whatever feels right to you.  Ask yourself if you have sex with this friend, is it something you might end up regretting.  When you're sure you're doing the right thing for you then you shouldn't have to question it.

You have to decide what's right for you.  You could have sex with your friend and finally "turn off the switch" but how are you going to feel emotionally?  Really weigh the pros and the cons of doing this vs. waiting for the one.

Two years ago I posted an ad on craigslist.  I said I was a 30 something year old virgin who was interested in meeting a "teacher." Aside from the virgin part,  I've never had a boyfriend, never held hands, never even been kissed. I got tons of responses but in the end I just couldn't go through wi  th it.   Sometimes, I wish I had gone through with it because of the sex part but then I knew with one of these guys I wouldn't get that emotional part; holding each other, cuddling--I mean I could of but it would have been hollow.

I always thought at this stage in my life I'd be married, with a few kids. Instead I'm still a virgin