Codependents & Love Addicts

yes... i am...

i don't feel like i'm rushing... but i can feel myself taking the journey to trusting someone again. My new guy has been great and things are going better than i imagined. From the moment i met him and had a strong physical attraction... to that first kiss that was off the charts great. And now just spending a lot of time together and enjoying every minute of it. yay.

my fear of being codependent gets less and less each day... i feel myself getting attached to him but not losing who i am ie my likes and preferences. As long as he treats me good...Because i know what boundaries are now and that should make a huge difference from past relationships. i'm hopeful.

Loonybunny

That's terrific :)!

When someone is really good for you, you can just feel it :). There's no fear or discomfort or too much analyzing or thinking involved. You're just totally in the moment :).

I'm glad that it's working out well for you :). You've worked so hard at this for so long and you're finally seeing the fruits of your labors :). Good for You :).

And you just seem so aware of yourself and the way the you think and feel :). That's great :).

Just enjoy it and stay in the moment :),

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SK

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How's the new relationship going? Just wondering, not to be nosey or anything :).

I just know I'm not ready for that, because I'm just in way too much pain right now, lol. I can't believe that guy just keeps coming by and calling so much like that, even though he knows we're not feeling good.

He's just too young, too. And I feel kind of immature and irresponsible about myself because my friends are all so much younger than me, lol. It's because I have a small child, whom I should've had ten years ago, at least, lol.

Seriously, it's a bit whacky that guys in their late 20, early 30 like me right now. I've always liked them older, but now that I'm getting up there in age, I'd rather be with someone my age, maybe a year or two older.

Anyway, I really did will this on myself, but I didn't expect it to happen "this" way, lol. I've used creative visualization to attract this, thinking that Romantic Love was more important to me than anything else. But my life really needs to be in order first.

At least to be able to attract the kinds of men that I really want. I need to grow up some more if I want someone who's mature and responsible. I'm responsible, but not very mature for my age. A lot of women in my generation think young though. They say that 40 is the New 30, lol :).

Well, I hope you're enjoying yourself this season :). Thanks for the kind words and well wishes :).

Hugs,

SK

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the new relationship is going good... i am falling deeper and deeper in love.

as i get to a new level within my heart, i feel the fears... then i get past them and enjoy the relationship again...

it is scary though realizing how attached I am getting and how much it would hurt if he suddenly changed his mind... like i'm sorta going thru one of those moments today.. if i were on a journey, i would say it's like coming to a new wall or new obstical in my heart... and wondering if i'll get thru it or turn around and forget this "falling in love" stuff.

But i keep moving towards love. i keep getting myself tangled up more and more with him. And i hate feeling "girlie" like i am today... feeling like i just want him to say words of affirmation and lavish me with attention...

To answer what you brought up.. I went thru a phase of attracting younger men. Didn't bother me.. and i found it quite flattering. I stopped looking at age and more about compatibility. If i enjoyed a persons company, if he helped me take my mind off the day to day stresses for a little bit, then i'd keep him around for a date or two... or just a conversation or two. Even though i knew it wasn't too serious. It was about enjoying the moment (and i'm not talking about sex btw)... about discovering who i was in the new situation of being a single mom in my thirty's etc.. what that all meant.

one day at a time... keep moving forward.

Love,

Loonybunny

That's absolutely wonderful :)!

My lovelife seems to have really changed overnight, because I've been saying some prayers to find men more my age or a little bit older.

So all day, when we were out and about, all these older men noticed us and the young ones could've cared less, lol. So maybe that really was just a phase I was going through :).

Did you wait until your kids were older before you started dating again? I know that it was a little stressful on Keith when I was seeing that guy. It made him feel really insecure.

I don't think I'll ever get married. And I'm really okay with that, because I enjoy my alone time :). All the guys since Newt have just been really smothering and clingy and I couldn't stand it.

It would be great to find someone who likes his down time, too :). Or time with his friends :). I really want to keep all my women friends if I ever do meet someone, because I think that's important too :).

I really admire your strength, your motivation and your courage to have come so far and found out about the kinds of things that make you truly happy :).

Feel free to post anytime, because it's great to hear from you :)! It gives me hope :).

Hugs,

SK

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