Still no smoking :). It's been 11 days now.
And tomorrow, I'll have FULL driving privilidges again, because I'll be a licensed driver :))).
Keith is really sick today, but still in good spirits. His energy is low today and he's coughing a lot. I'm trying to get through to the doctor's office, but it's still pretty busy. He just needs to stay lying down with Nick Jr :). My mom is coming over in about an hour to bring some juices and stuff.
My back still hurts a lot, but my lungs are open again, finally :). I can't believe I smoked for two days after the accident, because I didn't think it was that serious, And I still continued to heal! I feel very, very lucky that it wasn't a lot worse and I feel lucky to be alive, too!
I get teased about my meditation, but letting go really helped me heal :). My aunt is a nurse and she said it was my inner strength, too :). She said that was a real gift and to respect that gift and never smoke again.
When I get my insurance back, I want to go to some specialists, including a back doctor. I'll probably have to deal with the arthritis for the rest of my life though.
The best way to manage it is with exercise, ice and anti inflammatories. But to exercise regularly and not sporadically, as I tend to do. Now that I'll be able to drive again, I can go anytime I want :).
We've got a nice sitter, who can come to the house, too :). She's a sweet, nice, all American cheerleader type, lol. She really enjoys coming here, too, because I'm such a laid back mom and Keith loves her :).
But I really need to tell that guy to bug off. Everybody I've met since Newt has just wanted to own me. If they were all as handsome as Newt was, I wouldn't mind being owned at all, lol. But there's just been no chemistry whatsoever.
I'm just too lazy to devote the time to a man. It's hard enough having company all the time when Melanie and her boys come over. Actually, it's quite fun now, because Melanie is a lot more relaxed and a lot happier, too :).
She's doing great without Jerry, too, lol. But she still loves and misses him. He still wants to come back and she keeps saying No. She said that the only way she'll take him back is serious Change. She's so much stronger than me, because she doesn't fall for the handsome face like I do, lol.
It's still going to be hard to go out after dark, because Keith isn't used to it now, so he gets scared. I can't take him to meetings either, but I'm sure he'll go out to dinner with me :).
And we won't have to see my mom that much, but I'm sure she'll start showing up at our door. She barged right in and came right upstairs last night. She's been giving me a real hard time lately and she even called Melanie and started yelling at her, but Melanie reminded her of how much she was only trying to help. Then my mom backed down and said she really does appreciate her help.
I hope I don't lose Melanie's friendship, because of my mom, but if I tell my mom not to be calling her to "keep tabs" on me, she won't. That's pretty sick when your mom is trying to "co parent" you with your best friend. She did the same stuff with my ex fiancee. Newt didn't buy it though, he thought it was ridiculous.
Anyway, I'm done complaining for the day :). I have to rememeber to focus on the GOOD :). Usually I'm a lot more positive, but it gets pretty hard, being in pain so much like I have.
But Susan, John's mom, said, "No matter how bad Michelle feels, she's always happy," lol. So that was nice to know :). John, Susan and Rob all live over by the playground. Rob is the guy who's pursuing me.
Okay, time to try to get a doctor appointment for Keith :). And to take his temp, although he doesn't feel so warm, since he's had some breakfast. It'll come back tonight though, maybe. Colds are always worse in the morning and at night, for some reason.
See ya'll later :),
Hugs,
SK
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