How do you react externally when you are having an emotional meltdown? Externally, I am more quick to react to everyday situations in an emotional way (tears or yelling at the kids more)
How do you react internally? I freeze up inside, have a difficult time eating, and feel as if something is squeezing my insides.
How do you get yourself to a safer and calmer place? Talking to my doctor or a trusted friend/family member helps, exercise helps, and removing myself from the situation is always beneficial even if for only a short time.
I had a major emotional meltdown over Christmas week last year. My mother, who is in her late 80s, was in the hospital with pneumonia. My brother and SIL, who have always been complete jerks toward DH and me, were there, treating us like children, demanding that we do this and that, stressing us to the breaking point, etc. One day all of us were in my mother's hospital room and they were going on and on to us about Goddess knows what and then they decide that they are going to get some lunch. After they left the room, DH was trying to explain to my mother what was going on with them and us and I completely lost it. I just broke down right then and there. I just couldn't take it anymore.
Whenever I have an emotional meltdown I cry, scream, shake, feel like I'm having a heart attack, feel like I'm going to throw up, etc. My mind goes blank and all I can focus on are my emotions and physical symptoms. I seem to stop thinking altogether. At the time, DH took me out of the room and into the lobby (people are used to seeing other people crying in a hospital at least). He held me, talked softly to me and let me get it out. After my brother and SIL came back DH and I left and went on a trip to Charleston in order to get away from the situation and to get me stable again.