Recognizing & Dealing w/ Domestic Abuse

Taking this thread down. Probably no one could relate. I have no life anymore.
I tried to get out but it was too complicated. I havent seen one friend in three years except one that visited May of last year. My mind is destroyed and I am half dead. The Social workers do not care. When I think about leaving I get very upset, because I know I am too sick to handle life in a homeless shelter or a full blown move. I am having problems breathing as it is today. Some lives just go so bad. I never thought my life would go this bad. People only love you when you are "positive", have money and are "healthy". The only friends I have in this life is people I met on internet and one friend from college that still talks to me.

So there is nothing to look forward to. Sorry to bore this board.

It is hard to be positive when you live in h**l. What do YOU think YOU need to do to make the changes YOU need to be the person YOU want to be?

Changing the past is not something that can be done. But taking from the past to make you a better person is something that CAN be done.

Your mom basically let you down, your sister has let you down, your other family has let you down, and "friends" have let you down. Do you stop and let them win?

Or do you pull yourself together and prove everyone of them wrong...

A song my daughter listens to all of the time "Skater Boy" tells where a girl felt herself better than this one boy and dumps him and treats him pretty crappy...he turns out to be a rock star who will not give her the time of day....think of yourself as the boy and everyone else as the girl....show them how wrong they were and be sure they know and feel the loss they served up for themselves....

But only you can do this, we can give you support, encouragement, ideas, and hope, but only YOU can make the changes you want in your life. Letting your handicap hold you back is a dis service to yourself. Yes you have more than your fair share of disabilities, even more so than I have. But do you really just lay down and die and make all those insensitive worthless people happy? No you pick yourself up and discover what you CAN do inspite of your disabilities.

Where do you start? within your own heart and mind. You have to decide you WANT to make these changes and do whatever needs to be done to get these changes you so deserve. Will it be an overnight change? NO it takes time even for the most able bodied person. For you it may take even a bit longer...dont let that discourage you...yes you can yes you can...you are now renamed "the little engine that could"....you think you can you think you can....soon you will be posting I knew I could I knew I could.....

Hang in there, if we were in the same town I would be there physically for you too...many of us would.

Kat

"Where do you start? within your own heart and mind. You have to decide you WANT to make these changes and do whatever needs to be done to get these changes you so deserve."

That's so true!

Best wishes, Bugmenot. Be focused and disciplined in your mind, for your thoughts are what take you places and make things possible. Without our inner love and determination, we have nothing. YOU CAN DO IT. Decide what you want your inner landscape to be and shut out all the rest with a vengeance. You can come out of this.

What do YOU think YOU need to do to make the changes YOU need to be the person YOU want to be?

1. GET MORE MONEY

2.  GET Some REAL LIFE COMPANIONS; Break the horrible isolation.

3. Get medical problems fixed, they are VERY SERIOUS. Some are not fixable.

The problem is, THE HEAR ME ROAR I AM WOMAN SELF EMPOWERMENT crap doesnt work for everyone BROKE or so sick, that if its under 45 degrees/over 80 you cant go outside without having an asthma attack. I know you mean well so do not be offended. I just gotta take life day by day.

Or do you pull yourself together and prove everyone of them wrong...

I need allies.
I cant end up homeless from the shelter, my health is too percarious.

If he leaves me, then I can survive. I will have my home. I can get a roommate and emergency housing funds for short term. We are living like roommates and have been for a year. So do not know where this is going. Trying to prepare. Been surprised he has not left me yet.

Domestic Violence shelters are better than homeless shelters.  Call 800-799-SAFE for a dv shelter near you.  Find out if there is space available for your disability.  In some cases the shelter can house you in a motel.   Contatct your state's office in your area for the number for disabled.  They should be able to help also.