I love coming on here and getting so much great advice.
Well we were doing so well. We both had decided to go no contact and it was 3 weeks and yesterday he called me. Said he missed talking to me and said he always wonders... Just to recap we have had lots of sexual texting, emailing and only one time where we were alone and we both started kissing and touching but stopped as it was in a place that was way to open to the public. We are both married and he has told me he does not plan on leaving his wife. And I don't plan on leaving my husband, we both have very young families. So why do I turn so weak and let him control me like this? I know and have read all the damage that we have already done and will continue if we cross the line and get into bed together. He knows my husband is leaving town in 2 weeks for a week and he asked me yesterday if we could get together just to talk. I told him I do not trust myself alone with him. I hate this. I am back to how I was feeling months ago. Why is this so hard? And why can't I seem to be strong enough to just push him away and not answer his texts or calls. I told him I wonder if he is a player and if he has done this before and he said never.
Thanks for listening.
Love 
