I just had to declare my big news - ONE MONTH OF NC!! That doesn't seem like a lot, considering my xAP and I have reached 8 months before, but I'm in a much, much, much different place than I was when that 8 month NC stretch ended. I also had to send a big, big THANK YOU to everyone on this board. This place has been amazing and is definitely a big factor in why I'm in a different place emotionally and mentally during this NC.
To everyone who is just starting with NC - it DOES get better. It feels so good to leave my phone lying on the kitchen table, and not have to worry about whether my DH picks it up. He actually checked it today to see if it was done charging, and it was great not to have that heart attack I used to, wondering what text was there that he would see!
I feel stronger, more confident, and happier than I have in a long time. My M is on the mend, and I am seeing what a wonderful guy my DH is, which I totally lost sight of when I was in the A fog. I would be lying if I said it wasn't difficult at times, but when I get those bad feelings creeping in, I just remind myself that it was never a REAL relationship. It was TOXIC and I'm better off without it, no matter how much it hurts sometimes, or how much I miss him. It was BAD NEWS.
I love that I've gone a month without a stupid fight on the phone, or via text, or staying up late to give my xAP the third degree about where he was going, who he was with, etc. - WHO CARES?!?!
I look forward to many more months of this freedom.
((HUGS)))
Gal
Love 
