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I need to get over my ex

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  desperate2boverhim
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  Oct-6 7:41 pm

I am having trouble getting over my ex. I was a late bloomer. I did not even have my first kiss until I was 18 yo and in college. I dated a couple of guys in my early undergraduate years and then when I was 22 I met 'Him" he was tall, handsome, funny, and so easy to talk to. He oozed sex in his voice, in his demeanor, in his personality and not in a perverted waybut the kinda way that makes your swoom. .But I was a virgin.  I was so into him and he seemed to be in to me. He called 5-6 times a day and we could talk about anythig. He didnt have a car so he would "borrow" his mom's, cousin's, dad's whoever car late at night and drive 20 miles to come and see me. He made me feel like I was on cloud nine. That lasted for about 3 weeks and then things began to change and once I told him that I wouldn't give him my virginity everything kind of just stopped. I still had very intense feelings for him but he just kind a moved on. He would call me every six months or so and come see me late at night. Basically stringing me along. fast forward 3 years. I met my husband and I lost my virginity to my husband and even though my husband was everything that I asked God for I decided to begin a  sexual relationship  with "Him". We had sex twice before I got married and I told my husband (boyfriend at the time and he forgave me.) About a year after my husband and I got married we started experiencing a lot of stress in our marriage not due to either of us but from deaths in the family and my husband losing his job. I felt so alone and like I needed to escape and I selfishly contacted that person and we had sex again this time we rented a hotel room and everything. We did this twice. After this last time I realized that this person was not the man I thought he was and that I was a fool to cheat on my husband with a total loser.  But I can not get over him. I fantasize about what my life would be like with him. Sometimes I catch myself doing it during sex with my husband. I want him to love me and feel for me the way he did for his ex that he always talked about which made me feel inadequate. So now I am dealing with unresolved feelings for a person that didnt really care about me and I am coming to terms with the fact that I loved him and he didnt love me  all while trying to rebuild my marriage. I know now that I should have not gotten married knowing that I truly deep in my heart wanted to be with someone else and I had not healed from those past hurts. But I love my husband and I want my marriage to work. I need advice. I need to know how to let go of this person. I do not want to think about "Him" anymore!
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I need to get over my ex

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  Oct-8 8:51 pm

((hugs)) I know how you feel.  To fall in love with a person that never gave two cent about you can really hurt.   I believe,  we all want what we can have.  So, these men that do not want us become more attracting to us.  However, we are deserving women that deserve men that want us and love us.  We are worthy of LOVE.  So, sweetie do yourself a favor and let him go.    Whenever you think about him replace him with another thought.  PRACTICE,  PRACTICE, AND SOON YOU WOULD NOT THINK OF HIM ANYMORE..

 

  

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