Thanks you guys. Your posts helped me to calm down. I had a good time. The only thing that upset me was that when I was on my way to pick him up he called and said his W's sibling stopped by for some stupid reason. So I had to drive around town and wait for them to leave. That just made me realize once again how stupid this situation is and how easy a D-day can occur.
I told him how I felt and he felt bad(not my intention) But we still had a good time. He bought food and cooked for me. We laughed and just enjoyed each other It was nice to wake up in the middle of the night and feel his arms around me. It made my heart melt. He told me today that he thought about our night together all day long. Why wont he just be with me? Oh that's right he's married. ugh!
Torn, to answer your questions, when me and AP first got together I was still with my H so there was no way for us to have an overnight. I may have been able to get away with it but not him. Since me and H are now seperated and I have an apt somehow he was able to do it and wants to stay over again soon. Thats nice. He asked me if I would want it to be this way all the time. Duh, of course I would. But to be together or to not be together, that is the question and the end of this year is just around the bend. So I hope he starts taking some action. We shall see.
Love 
