MAS

I had initially typed out a pretty good explanation but I don't know what I did to lose it.  I dont' feel like retyping it all right now so I'll just make it short and sweet.

Married for almost 11 years and I haven't been in love with him for many years.  We have two kids.  I started having an affair with my boy a couple months ago.  It's fabulous and I'm happy for the first time in YEARS!  He is amazing....the best guy I have EVER met.  Plus, he is absolutely and positively AMAZING in bed!  I never knew I could EVER enjoy sex....let alone THIS much!  As sick as it sounds, I haven't regretted my decision to have the affair ONCE.  My boy is 8 years older, divorced (no kids), and just the best.  He really is everything I've EVER wanted in a man.

My H found out on Saturday.  Things have turned upside down but he has FINALLY agreed to a divorce.  He kept thinking if I stayed I'd learn to love him again.  The family and friends are beginning to find out and I think that's been harder to handle than my H finding out.  I dunno.  I am STILL not regretting what I did but it's just been a hard couple of days.  I feel bad my children are going to be affected by this right now but I know in the long run I am doing what is best for all of us.  I didn't WANT to hurt H but this is what happened. 

I feel too old to be THIS crazy about a guy but I can't HELP it.  I have NEVER EVER EVER felt this way about ANYONE!  It's exciting and scary!  I don't know if I'd drop the "L" word yet but I'm certainly crazy about him.  And, it hasn't "faded," it's gotten MORE intense.

Anyhow, hoping I can get some support here because I'm sure you can imagine I don't get much IRL.  It's tough to be sooo happy and not be able to SAY anything about it! 

Thanks for listening!

~Michelle