Four months post divorce (and ten years post-any-physical-affection) and I've decided I'm ready to move on. In fact, I'm ready to work/fight through the shyness that has held me back so far! I had a late invite to a Halloween Party but went anyway...the only single person there and the only one not in a costume. Not sure why they invited me, or why they did when they did, but I made myself go, socialize, have fun. I figure maybe people will at least get the idea that after decades with Mr. Anti-Social, I'm interested in get-togethers. I just refuse to let my shyness and pride keep me caged up any longer.
But wait, there's more...a flirtation at work! I don't know if anything will come of it, and--not to shock anyone, but it would probably be a friendship-with-benefits. At 53, I don't have a lot of choices, though I'll keep looking. The man in queston is someone I've been attracted to for a long, long time but am not in love with. (Pretty darn sure it's been the same on his end.) Maybe flirtation is as far as it will go...OK, at least someone wants to flirt with me, and I've been brave enough to flirt back!
I got over some of my foolish pride, too, and admitted to a friend I have nowhere to go over Thanksgiving. She was wonderful and made me feel WANTED! XH has nowhwere to go and doesn't know how to cook. I'm trying not to feel guilty--my therapist, sister, and friend all said I have to cut that out. DD will have T dinner with him, then join me later for dessert.
I just want a chance to lead a rich, full, happy life. It's starting to dawn on me that I'm going to have to burst through my comfort zone to make that happen.And no retroactive cringing!!
Love 
