20-Something Hangout

I'm almost 30 and I have developed extremely low self-esteem in the past 2-3 years. It started with being fired from a job, being rejected by a couple of people in my life, recently it's a lack of a good job (I'm babysitting but trying to break into marketing).

Here's an example of what I'm dealing with:

- I emailed a few people I used to talk to on regular basis inviting them to hang out, call me, catch up and I HAVE NOT HEARD FROM THEM, like weeks went by so for one, if they ever DO call, I obviously wasn't their priority to call me back/ email me right away, which is only polite anyway

_ I emailed a couple of professionals i know askign for professional advice on finding employment and I DID NOT GET A RESPONSE

Here's what goes on in my headL THEY DON'T LIKE ME, THEY THINK IM A PEST, they don't want to bother with me even if they act like they like me when they see me

What kills me even more knowing that these people regularly update their stupid facebook/twiiter accounts so it's not like they are that busy if they have the time to chat about getting manicures or going to Starbucks

The other good example would be the fact that I recently was hospitalized and some people did not even bother to send me a card/email
This makes me very sad and lowers my self esteem

Im a nice girl, always send birthday/thank you and good wishes cards to everyone, I try to be a good friend and it seems like the more i try, the less response I get

Last example, I texted an acquitance a couple of times, askign how she is doing, 2 months- no response and we used to text each other all the time

How do I find out if this has to do with ME? Why do people do this?

I know what you mean, I hate it when people ignore you.  Its only common courtesy, I know that I always return texts just because I'm not a person to ignore someone else, I wouldnt want them to do that to me, so I dont do it to them.

However, I dont think that it can chip away at your self-esteem unless you already have low self esteem to begin with.  I have low self esteem, but its from years and years back, started when I was a little kid.  You go through a phase in your childhood when your self esteem develops, so if you have a good developed self esteem, I imagine it would take alot to get to the point where you would have low self esteem.  Self esteem doesnt work like that.  

if you have low self-esteem its very possible to get it back, but it takes alot of self-examination.  When do you feel you first started feeling like you have low self-esteem?  There are very simple excersises you can do.  Just think that its not all about you why these people do not reply.  You have no idea what is going on in there heads, therefore there is no surefire way to know that its because of you.  Know that you are a worthwhile person just for the fact that you are trying your best.