I'm terrified and paniced about the wedding. I have been for a long long time and no one seemed to listen. I wanted to elope... and instead I ended up with a 400 person wedding. My finace said that he could get on board the elopement thing back when we started, but to make a long story short, doing that would cause awful family issues. I was SURE that I would get over my Newport, RI dream wedding after I threw myself into planning the other one. Unfortunately, my terror and feelings of dread for the big wedding have not gone away, and I've gotten sad that I will miss out on my dream wedding. At this point, everthing is ready to go... its less than a month away. Still, it's difficult to resist the urge to throw my finace on a plane and head out to Newport for the wedding of my dreams. He says that while he would have early on, he won't now, as he doesn't want to mess up the plans set on the invite.
I'm of the mindset that I will gladly send a note to everyone announcing our elopement and still have the big reception, just not the wedding. A problem though is that the catholic church will not support that wedding, or recognize it, and we both value our faith. I'm stuck here aren't I? I just need to go get some anti anxiety drugs from the doctor, face the dread and panic and do it, don't I?
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